I have had more personal encounters with the Lord lately. I've seen Him in my mind. I've talked with Him, not just to Him. I've heard Him respond to me. He smiles a lot. He is so... calm. I thoroughly enjoy my meetings with Him. So much so that that's all I want to do is just sit with Him beside the still waters and be in His presence. However, God still has me here for a reason. He wants me to do His work. I can't spend my days only sitting in His presence. Somehow I've got to learn how to get up and go about my day still knowing that HE IS WITH ME. I need to learn to walk in His strength, His peace, His power - not my own. Without Him, I am nothing and I can do nothing. It's the transitioning from the mental meetings to the active doing that I'm trying to figure out.
Just this morning He reminded me that I need to come to Him like a little child. He said that I'm learning to walk all over again. At first this hurt me because after 30+ years of being a believer, I would like to think I'm beyond the childish stage. But then He called me out and said that I was being prideful. Instead I need to rejoice in the moment of learning something new (to me). I need to be excited about the opportunity to grow.