Last night I awoke at around 12:40 a.m. (I guess I should say "this morning" instead). I had had a nightmare. This nightmare was so bad that at first I couldn't even remember what it was about, yet I was extremely afraid. I awakened my husband but I didn't want to talk about the dream. Actually the memory of it was just starting to trickle back into my brain, and I could not yet verbalize it. I felt physically ill from this nightmare! I was shaking, and extremely disturbed and distressed. I wanted to come and write out the dream and share it here, but instead went to my closet and wrote it down in my paper journal. Afterwards I was disturbed even more and I just sat there and cried. What made me so frightened? Well, after having remembered the dream, I started to doubt if I am as close to God as I have been thinking, and if something I felt strongly about having heard from Him was actually Him and not the enemy. Doubts plagued me. I decided that I needed the Word, and felt compelled to read Jeremiah 29:11-13, so that's what I did. I read the words and couldn't help but cry even more. I was too upset to go back to sleep -actually I was afraid to go back to sleep! I didn't want to keep my husband up, so I went to the kitchen where we keep the computer and logged on. I searched the Living Proof ministries website and found a link that would allow me to listen to some of Beth Moore's lectures. The first one was from 1 Peter 1:1-9, proving us genuine. These verses helped to calm me. It was a 30 minute lesson, and one I needed to hear at the time. Another lecture I listened to was from Ephesians 3. It was 47 minutes long and again, what I needed to hear. The Word quieted my spirit and reminded me that I had indeed heard God's voice and not the enemy's. The nightmare was from the enemy. I remembered that God does not give us a spirit of fear and that He gives sleep to those He loves. I was able to go back to bed and eventually back to sleep.
I praise God, my Father, for His Word! I praise Him for His promise to complete the work He has started in me.