Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Are You "Testy"?

I wanted to share some thoughts that I had from the Beth Moore sessions I participated in at the womens retreat this past weekend. As I previously mentioned, the title or theme of the weekend was "Loving Well". Beth went over four categories of people that we interact with during our lifetime, and how we respond in love - or not. Here are the four categories:

  • Joy - people who are a joy for us to love (Phil. 4:1)
  • Testy - people who really test us and we struggle to love (Phil. 4:2)
  • Foe - people who we don't love at all, but actually hate, Beth says, "you hate with all your being"
  • Far - people who are strangers (Mt. 25:34-40)

We were instructed to picture faces for each category of people. Beth told us to really search our hearts and be brutally honest about this. I found myself thinking of more "joy" people than anything, which made me feel really good. There are a few "testies", but for the most part, I think that I am testy! Foe - I really can't think of any (at least not any new ones - I've forgiven several people in my day). However, I did recall how recently I considered God my foe. Scary, huh? After the death of my mom and grandmother, I was so angry with God that I must have considered Him my foe. I shared this with the ladies at the retreat. I told them how God allowed me to stomp my feet, shake my fists, scream and cry and yell - you know, pitch a major fit. All the time I was doing that and telling God how mad I was at Him for taking my mother - He still loved me. That blows my mind! When I recall how ugly I was, how ungrateful and selfish I was, yet God never stopped loving me! It truly is amazing, people!

Beth also pointed out in her message that just as I am a woman and nothing could ever change that, God IS LOVE. He can't help but love us because HE IS LOVE. It's His nature. Awesome! There were several 'sound bites' I call them that Beth said that really struck a chord with me:

  • God measures maturity by how we love.
  • We need to ask God to minster to us before we can minister to others.
  • God won't do through us what we don't let Him do to us.
  • We won't love well until we feel well loved.
  • Let's start loving because we are already loved, not so we will be loved. (I John 4:19)

And finally the strangers in our lives. Beth shared how we need to "stop, pause and minister" to the strangers we meet. Isaiah 58:6-12 says that when we reach out to those who are in need, then we will find healing. Isn't it amazing how God shows us that when we give of ourselves WE receive even more? Isn't that crazy? The world would have us believe that we have to take, take, take in order to be happy. But God says that we won't be happy and fulfilled until we learn to give and to love.

I have to admit that my brain can't comprehend the magnitude of this message. I'm not sure I'll completely understand it all this side of heaven, you know? There are so many days that I don't feel lovable or loving, and seperating feelings from fact doesn't come easily to me. It's the battle of the mind taking place on a regular basis.

Well, there's my love message (from Beth) - or I should say GOD's love message. Timely in that this weekend is Valentine's Day, don't you think? ;0 )


Brenda said...

It brought a few tears to read about your difficult and emotional time when you lost your mom and grandmother and the reaction you had to God. He is so incredibly patient and loving with us.

I agree that I have mostly Joy people in my life too. The Foe person is my neighbor. I never knew I could truly hate someone, and I've had to pray over and over that God would change my heart toward him. It's super difficult to pray for him and his salvation, but I do. I agree that reaching out and serving others can actually bless us also when that isn't even our goal.

Thanks for sharing these things... it's a lot to ponder, but valuable.

Potpourri of Praise said...

Thanks for sharing this. Beth Moore is an awesome lady...and I am so grateful for her ministry and the difference it has made in my life. This study sounds AWESOME!!