Friday, February 29, 2008

It may be pretty, but it's still trash.

Well, I was thinking that I haven't written a "serious" post in a while. At least I don't think I have. Tony just might prove me wrong again, so we'll see. Anyway, I thought I would try to be like my friend, Dean, and relate the every day stuff to my spiritual life. So why not use the compost pile I shared with you yesterday. (Tony, it's really difficult for me not to use "w/" instead of "with", but I'm thinking of you and taking your feelings into consideration here). I mentioned in my little blog about the compost pile picture that it looked pretty, even though it was still trash. Well, this morning it hit - sometimes sin looks pretty, but it's still... you guessed it... trash! Hmmm, I'll let that deep passage of thought sink in.

This kinda of reminds me of one of my not-heard-very-often-but-I-really-like-it songs...
"Drag me in the shallow water, before I get too deep". That's really all I remember of the song. I can't remember the artist, either, sorry.

To reiterate my blog: pretty compost - still trash; "pretty sin" - still trash!
Ooooo... here's more that just came to me! While the compost might look pretty at first and it is supposedly good for the garden... sin looks pretty at first (OK I know I already said that, but hold on) and it MIGHT seem good for you... it still ends up rotting and stinking and crawling with worms - JUST LIKE... yep! You're with me... the compost. WOW! I have got to stop!

On a totally different note I had a dream about Eddie Money last night. Weird, huh?

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Here it is!

early compost
Originally uploaded by dcellis3
Well, here's the beginning of my compost pile. Exciting, isn't it? It actually looks kinda pretty considering it's our trash, don't cha think? It's about all I've done so far concerning the gardening thing, other than research and stressing. I'm gonna try to take Tony's advice and enjoy it. We'll see... I'm not that good at enjoying stuff I feel I HAVE to do. I really should be a gypsy or part of the Royal Family, cause I don't really like to "DO" much of anything that's productive. I'm ashamed to admit it, but at least I'm honest, eh?

Well, I guess that's it for today. It was either blog about compost or cry on everyone's shoulder (not REAL shoulders) and I didn't think you would want to be part of a pity party, SO COMPOST IT IS!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

I'm all alone... sigh!

So I was up late again last night (couldn't sleep again) with nothing to do. Reading and watching TV disturb my hubby so I sneak into the kitchen where the PC is and I surf the Internet. Well, I thought I would take a look see at some of the people who have the same interests as I do, so I went to the profile part of this blog. I clicked on my interests and up pops other people. However, there was one interest that I have that evidently I am alone in... drinking coffee with friends. When I clicked on that my name was the only one! sigh! Where is the socialization, people? Why don't you guys like sitting around, sipping on some java and chatting with each other? What's up with that?

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Toss me a life preserver, please!

Yesterday I felt like I was treading water. It was all I could do to keep my head above the water of life (oooo - that's deep! Pun intended, of course). Why, you ask? Well, for one I'm missing my mom terribly. It's been almost a year! Can you believe it? April 9th, 2007, is the day my mom and my grandmother died and I can't believe it has been almost a year already. To me, and I'm sure the rest of my family, it seems like yesterday. Another reason I struggled yesterday is b/c of all this garden stuff. I have researched, read, researched, read and then researched and read again. There is SO much stuff to do just to get started! I'm tired just thinking about it all. The kids and I actually went to a greenhouse yesterday to look for seed. There's a greenhouse just down the street from us, so I walked and the kids rode their bikes. When we got there and I saw the seed display, I stood there and stared blankly. All of the seed packets looked alike to me! I could not distinguish carrots from turnips despite the pictures being RIGHT THERE! My head was swimming and I felt defeated before I could even begin.

You might be wondering why I want a garden so badly. Well, that leads into the next reason I feel like I'm in the deep blue struggling to breathe. All the foods we buy are so contaminated it's scary! That's one of the downfalls of research, I think. Sometimes you can have too much information. I think there's truth in the adage that "ignorance is bliss", you know? Anyway, I want to have a garden so that I know the food hasn't been exposed to pesticides and junk. We've also started buying beef and chickens from a friend who raises them grass-fed only (the cows) and free range (the chickens). We try to buy farm-fresh eggs (not always easy). All of this stuff is not cheap, but I feel it's best. Then again, part of me wonders if it is worth all the trouble. After all, we are living on this earth temporarily - why should it matter? And so on and on my mind goes... I'm drowning!

Monday, February 25, 2008

say cheese!

Originally uploaded by dcellis3
OK. After all of this photo browsing and downloading, uploading, whatever, I am really wanting to try my hand at photography... again. I get in this mood every once in a blue moon, but it rarely lasts b/c I'm not that good. I don't have the funds to purchase an extremely nice camera, so I become a mite frustrated. I've thought about taking classes, but who has the time for that? Plus I'm sure I'd be laughed at if I showed up with my little digital wanna be camera. A gripe that I have w/ my camera is the time delay. When I want to capture a candid shot the moment is over by the time the shutter closes! This picture is my attempt at capturing nature. It just doesn't show the quality and detail that I would like for it to show. Some of the pics I've seen online are so crisp, pristine and vibrant that you feel like you're there! That's what I want to capture. Oh well. I want lots of things, but that doesn't mean it'll happen.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

OK... I give!

I have tried and tried to no avail to figure out how in the world to add pics to my blogs. I get a headache every time I attempt and fail. It shouldn't be so difficult. I can add my own personal pics to my page, but that's not what I'm talking about. I like to add a little visual somethin' like others do, but well, I'm just not that advanced technically (or is it technologically?). I know, you're shocked, aren't you? No, probably not b/c many of you have had to come to my aid (or is it 'aide') many times before. Why can I not even spell aid w/o second guessing myself today? Maybe it's too much sugar! I'm supposed to be coming off the sugar - well, not supposed to for medical reasons other than a few pounds and a sound mind. Anyway, off the subject - sorry! Help me w/ the picture thingie, please! Oh, and make your explanation as preschoolish as possible. THANK YOU! =)

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Unicorns are real?!

As most of you know, I am a homeschool mom. My husband and I have been teaching our children at home now for six years. It is truly a blessing and we wouldn't have it any other way (unless God tells us to change). Right now we're studying ancient world history for one of our subjects. For the most part we follow a set curriculum but from time to time one or both of the kids will say, "Hey, Mom, can we learn about _________?", so of course I say "yes" and off we go. I really want to teach them what they are curious about; afterall they will retain more of the information if it's something they're interested in. Well, the other day, my daughter, Haley, asks if we can learn about unicorns and other magical creatures. She just bought a toy unicorn and it sparked her interest. I said yes, we could, and we would go to the library to see what we could find. Well, there wasn't as much at the library as I'd hoped, but we brought home what we did find. As we began delving into the subject, I realized that most magical creatures are not cute and cuddly like unicorns are. Most of them are from the dark side, if you will. So I began to wonder if this was such a good idea or not. I guess my concern stems from my own past experiences. You see, when I was about Haley's age, the friends I had in the neighborhood were all into Dungeons and Dragons. (I was the only girl in the neighborhood and this didn't make things easy at times. I don't really know why that's relevant, but there you go). So, one day my friend Mike (oh another off-the-subject fact - ALL of the boys, except ONE, were named Mike!) invited me over to play D&D. I said sure, because I had no clue what it was about. When I got to Mike's house, his dad was there along with the other Mike's, err, boys from the neighborhood. It was the middle of the day, but the room they were playing in was completely dark. Mike began trying to tell me how to play. Well, it's pretty involved and my head began to swim. I also felt extremely uncomfortable and a voice in my head kept telling me to get out of there! Now maybe it was the Holy Spirit (I accepted Christ as my Savior at a young age) letting me know that I shouldn't be experimenting with D&D, or maybe it was common sense telling me that a grown man shouldn't be home in the middle of the day playing with 9-13 years old - I dunno! Either way I said no thanks, and I went home. Well, it wasn't for years later that I really learned how dangerous D&D can be. I was thankful that I never started playing.

OK flash back to the present. With all the dark stuff that is out there, I can't help but wonder if I should expose my kids to any of it at all. I do feel somewhat responsible for Haley's interest b/c I remember from my KJV days that the Bible talks about unicorns. However, when I went to find the text, the information I read (link given above) mentioned that it was probably talking about an ox! BUMMER! So, anyway, we're back to unicorns being magical creatures and my doubts about teaching on this subject. Now, we have already discussed a little bit on Greek mythology and of course the Bible itself talks about idol worship, witchcraft and so on - albeit WARNING us to stay away from it all! So, where do I draw the line in the pursuit of education?

I suppose my concerns are really unfounded; after all if I had the wisdom and discernment to stay away from things like D&D when I was Haley's age, then surely she and Dawson will be blessed with the same. They are both believers and desire to please God. Still, I have my doubts. As Bill O'Reilly would say... "what say you?".

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

why is it...

  • Why is it that when I lie down or sit down I think of something that I needed to look up on the Internet, but when I'm actually sitting at the computer I can't remember what it was?

  • Why is it that when I'm craving salsa to the point of hysteria I can't open the jar, but when it's not a big deal it pops open seemingly on its own?

  • Why is it that when I need to just quickly run in and out of Publix there are no close parking spots, but if I have all day to shop, there are multiple spaces near the doors?

  • Why is it that when I happen to remember my favorite TV show is on it's a rerun showing?

  • Why is it that I can write my thoughts decently, but if I try to explain them in person, I, ummm, well, ummm, can't seem to, ummm, you know, ummm, spit them out?!

  • Why is it that when I decide to have a bowl of cereal, there's no milk in the frig?

  • Why is it that I have more comments to my not-so-serious posts compared to the serious ones?

Monday, February 11, 2008

Let me off this merry-go-round!

I don't really have anything important to say. I just can't get to sleep. It seems that I have ADD once the lights go out. My brain goes 'round and 'round. It's frustrating, really. I mean I'm trying to have a conversation w/ God before I go to sleep, and then I find my thoughts have trailed off onto a path of their own. What's more they split up and head off into multiple directions! I can't keep one straight thought. Crazy, huh? I would try and record some of the thoughts for you, but I can't slow them down long enough to tell what they really are. Maybe that's why trail mix appeals to me so much. Each handful is a different mixture than the one before it. Or like Forrest Gump says about life being like a box of chocolates - you never know what you're gonna get. Well, I never know where my brain's gonna take me each night other than Frustration Lane or Aggravating Alley! It doesn't help that my husband begins snoring even before the weather comes on the news cast. Good grief! How does he do that?

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Fear of success

My title comes from something that my Mom used to say to me when I was a young adult. She would tell me that my brother Daniel and I were both afraid of succeeding and that's why we never tried new things. It made me angry when she said that, but that's usally a sign of hearing the truth, isn't it? So what things am I afraid of succeeding in? Well, one of them, I think, is interpreting for the Deaf. I've attempted more times than I can count to become fluent in American Sign Language, but every time I get to a certain point, I chicken out and stop. I don't know why it is or what it is exactly that I am afraid of, other than what my mom said - success! Do you find that as bizarre as I do - that someone would be afraid of success? Are you one of those people? If so, I'd like to know that I'm not alone.

Friday, February 8, 2008

Two blogs in one!

#1 I am a subscriber to World Magazine. I receive a link to the online version but I usually wait for the hard copy in the mail. I just like flipping through an actual magazine, especially since I'm on the computer way too much as it is. Well, as I was reading through the magazine today I read an article entitled "Death in the subculture CCM: Demise of Christian music magazine signals hard timese for Christian rock" (Here's the link if you wish to read the entire article Well, the jest of the article is that Christian musicians today do not want to be labeled "Christian musicians". Here's the quote that really perturbed me, "The magazine (talking about CCM) had previously covered only music with explicit religious content, perennial annoyance to Christian artists who believed music should incorporate all aspects of life and creation without forced utterances of Jesus' name or cliched religious imagery". WHAT? They don't want to use Jesus' name in their music? Maybe I'm reading this all wrong, and if I am then please correct me. When I listened to secular music I don't expect to hear a message about Jesus, but when I listen to Christian music, I want Jesus to be the center of the song. Does that make sense? One reason that it took me a long time to enjoy "Christian rock" is b/c it didn't seem sincere to me. Then along came Third Day, Casting Crowns, Jennifer Knapp, and I thought, "Cool! They get it!". If this magazine article is correct, then my initial suspcicions of insincerity are proving to be true. How sad!
#2 On almost a different note, this "evangelical subculture" thing... what's up with that?

Thursday, February 7, 2008

U2 3D

YIPPE!! The U2 3D movie is coming to HSV. How cool is that? I don't think that I could ever afford attending a for real concert, so the 3D movie would be the next best thing. I think the whole concept of 3D concert movies is neato torpedo. I went to see the Hannah Montanta one w/ Haley and it was rather fun.

When I was checking out the website for the U2 3D movie (click on title above for link for movie) I saw the names of everyone in the band (I've only known Bono's name). Anyway, it was funny, the names appear, "BONO", "EDGE", "Adam Clayton", "Larry Mullen, Jr.". I just thought it funny that there's a Bono and an Edge then Larry, Jr.. he he! I mean, he could at least change it to just J.R. or something, couldn't he? Oh well.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

I think I have a problem

I hesitate to write this b/c there are others who were significantly affected by the early morning storms that passed through our state. Thankfully we were not one of those. However, we do have a few things that were zapped by the electrifying forces of lightening. My heart stopped as Dwight was evaluating the damage: Internet access - zapped! DVD player - zapped! XBOX - zapped! Phone line (packet 8) - zapped! PC router - zapped! PC - sigh - NOT zapped! WHEW!! Thanks to Charter I am back online and able to check my e-mail, my blogs (and the lack of comments), the latest news, etc. Everything else I can deal with (however it will be a slight inconvience), but if my PC and Internet service had been completely zapped - I would be going crazy. It's a sad state, I know.

Hi, my name is Christy and I'm a blogoholic!

Monday, February 4, 2008

Sleep Talker in Action

July 26, 2005

Last night I dreamt that I was walking on a narrow, difficult path with an awkward burden on my back. The path or trail where I stood was on a creek bed with tree roots protruding out, stumps sticking slightly up above the surface of the water and slippery rocks peeking their heads up out of the water as well. I wasn’t alone on this path, so I wasn’t scared. I was frustrated from time to time, especially when I saw others who had decided to turn back and it made my journey even more difficult since the path was barely wide enough for one person. So when they approached me, I had to climb up the steep, slippery embankment to get out of their way. They wouldn’t even say “excuse me”, or acknowledge me or the others traveling forward at all.

Sometimes a person would pass me by, and we might make small talk about how difficult the path was. We wondered how much farther it would be, or if this was as hard as it got, and so on. I also made the observation on a couple of occasions that the branches and the roots of the trees that we used for support seemed to be getting weaker and would soon break off completely. This disturbed me, because I didn’t know how the others behind me would make it through without those branches and without those roots!

Well, I finally made it to shore, but once I got there it was madness! It seemed that everyone who had gone on before me had decided to just stop and sit once they got there! No one was going any farther! It was so congested! I couldn’t get past, especially with the burden I was carrying. Now, I was extremely frustrated. I mean, what’s the point of taking such a long, hard journey if you are only going to STOP and SIT DOWN and DO NOTHING?

Politely I said, “Excuse me” several times, but no one bothered to move. In fact, I was completely ignored. I tossed my burden across several people, hoping that would get their attention and help them to realize, “Oh, she’s serious and wants to keep going”, but they just kept on sitting there and kept on talking! Finally, I raised my voice and said again, “EXCUSE ME! Do you think you can stand up and move?”

Well, I actually said that phrase out loud and woke myself up! :) I’m bad about doing that, just ask Dwight. Since God often talks to me through my dreams, I felt compelled to record this one. I believe it has spiritual significance, don’t you? I pray that God will show you what He wants you to see. I already see what He wants me to.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Too Much Information

The kids and I were watching a special on National Geographic tonight called "Incredible Human Machine". Now NG is one of my favorite channels to watch even though I have to repeatedly remind my children that we did not evolve. However, tonight's program gave me a bit more information than I really cared to know. Do you remember from 7th grade biology the gross films we had to endure of the digestive system? (I personally didn't want to ever eat again after my biology teacher said that "digestion begins in the mouth" - EWW!) Well, this is basically what was in the program only now instead of an x-ray of a person eating, we are treated with an actual camera placed somehow inside a mouth and we get to watch someone chew their food from the inside. Not only that but the camera (evidently the size of a pill) is swallowed by this person and we get to travel down the esophagus, into the stomach, and then the small intestine. WOO HOO! What a lovely experience indeed! Thankfully we were spared the large intestine and the excretion of said camera. However, Haley did comically say that when the person was relieved of the camera that someone must have reminded that person "DON'T FLUSH!". Thankfully the program wasn't only about digestion, however some of the scenes of brain surgery were too intense for us so I changed the channel for a few minutes.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

What I got from Malachi (another entry from my personal journal)

December 4, 2007

I was reading Malachi tonight b/c I believe it is the book our Sunday school will be discussing this coming Sunday. I was only planning on reading the book, but boy! Did God ever convict me!

Every time I spend being depressed or in the pit, as I call it (as does King David), I know that I eventually will be lifted out and that the Lord will show me a reason for it. I don’t know if this simple conviction is the reason for my current residence in the pit or not, but I wanted to make note of what God has made painfully aware to me through Malachi.

The very first chapter – God is scolding the Israelites b/c of their contemptible offerings. Verse six “ A son honors his father, and a servant his master. If I am a father, where is the honor due me? If I am a master, where is the respect due me?” says the LORD Almighty. “it is you, O priests, who show contempt for my name. But you ask, ‘How have we shown contempt for your name?’

Verse seven “You place defiled food on my altar. But you ask, ‘How have we defiled you?’ “By saying that the LORD’s table is contemptible.

Verse eight “When you bring blind animals for sacrifice, is that not wrong? When you sacrifice crippled or diseased animals, is that not wrong? Try offering them to your governor! Would he be pleased with you? Would he accept you?” says the LORD Almighty.

This convicted me b/c for many months now when I tithe, I have not done so in a way that honors God. I have simply been writing out another check as if it were a bill. In fact, that’s usually when I write out my tithe check, when I’m paying bills. I realized from reading this that I am offering God blind animals, crippled animals, b/c I am not giving out of gratefulness or out of worship. I have only been giving out of obligation and/or habit.

When I realized this, I was so heartbroken that I have been so ungrateful to my LORD, the LORD Almighty!

I know that many people get tired of hearing the preacher talk about tithing again and again; but you know what? It isn’t the preacher commanding us to tithe – IT IS GOD! Why? God doesn’t need “our money”. He wants us to recognize that we have what we have b/c of HIM. He wants us to have another avenue to worship Him! YES – WORSHIP HIM THROUGH TITHING!!!

To continue in Malachi – verse nine “Now implore God to be gracious to us. With such offerings from your hands, will he accept you?” – says the LORD Almighty. Verse 10 – “Oh, that one of you would shut the temple doors, so that you would not light useless fires on my altar! I am not pleased with you,” says the LORD Almighty, “and I will accept no offering from your hands. (Italics mine) Verse 11 – My name will be great among the nations, from the rising to the setting of the sun. In every place incense and pure offerings will be brought to my name, because my name will be great among the nations,” says the LORD Almighty.

Enjoying the Discussions

I just wanted to say that I have/am thoroughly enjoying the discussions we've had concerning the Egyptian post. I don't have time right now to begin anything new. I just wanted to say, "thanks, guys". =)